Tuesday, November 17, 2009

I Think I Liked "No News" Better

Well, I met with the surgeon today. He confirmed what I already suspected, that this is a fairly aggressive cancer and that I will need a complete masectomy. He set me up with an oncologist and a PET Scan so they can assess whether or not the cancer has spread outside of the breast. He saw nothing that indicated to him that it has spread, so I am hopeful.

Chemo is in my future, potentially both before and after the surgery. I am ridiculously and superficially concerned about losing my hair, as if it really matters that much. It will grow back. Still, the kids are going to be merciless with the bald jokes...

I have an appointment with UCLA tomorrow for a second opinion. We liked the surgeon we met today just fine but it seems a second opinion for something this major is in order. They may recommend a different course, in which case we will need to make some decisions.

I am overwhelmed by gratitude for the prayers, support and help I have received from far and near. Especially I am grateful for my church and school community who are mobilizing in an unbelievable way to help us through this. Words cannot express my heartfelt thanks.

Keep praying! It's going to be a long road, but I'm determined to beat this.


Briana Schalow said...

Do you prefer hats, scarves, or wigs? In any case, I think this calls for a shopping trip!!

Ange.i.am said...

We are all praying for you Suzanne!

Anonymous said...

Myself and my family will be praying for you and your family through this.

KatieGirl said...

A friend of mine went thru this many years ago and had such faith and a sense of humor about it. When she went for surgery she wrote in black magic marker on the good side "not this one dummies". She is cancer free for 16 years now. I truly believe that prayers, faith and humor got her thru it. You are surrounded by love and support.

Bianca said...

I am glad that you are getting a second opinion and I like the idea of a shopping trip with Briana! You are so loved and prayed for each and everyday! May God continue to strengthen you and hold you in his hands during this journey.

Anonymous said...

Oh, Suz. I'm so sad to hear your diagnosis. We will pray like never before and keep you in our well wishes and thoughts every day. It looks like you have such a great support network down there. Know that we are sending you our love from up North!

BTW, you are a beautiful woman, hair or no hair. And, I see a wonderful hat and scarf collection in your future. Wear them with pride!

Renee Bertenthal

Annie Bizzi said...

I second the beautiful woman comment-no amount of hair can ever change that!
Luv ya!

Kerry said...

Suzanne, everyone at Vivisimo has you in their thoughts and prayers. We will do whatever is necessary to support you and Jay through this adventure. As for losing your hair, I have lot's of experience there if you need consulting!

Agnieszka said...

Dear Suzanne,

I have just discovered your blog through Antonia's. I just wanted to tell you that you and your family are in my prayers.

God bless,


Anonymous said...

On the bright side, you won't have to dye your hair anymore !! :) or shave your legs, or your underarms and you might be able to lose a pound or two... without having to exercise.... and you'll get to reconstruct that part of your body that seven nursing children have left (well, you know). You're gonna be cancer-free and even more beautiful !! xo, Lori

Janet said...

Hey Suzanne -

I work with Jay..I've been through cancer treatments (lymphoma) when my kids were young and lost all my hair. And yes, I was upset about it at the time but looking back it wasn't such a big deal and I think my kids developed more empathy for others with medical problems and are proud of me for beating cancer. Hang in there girl and take it one day at time!

Fr. Mike Ohanete said...

My dear Suzy,
Jesus and Mother Mary love you. You will see wonders happen in your situation. Just make a total surrender of yourself into God's hands, and you will see that a miracle will happen to your surprize. "If God be for us who can be against us..." Please, read Romans 8:28-37 and God will speak to your heart.

Listen to God speak:
"Have not I commanded thee?
Be strong and of a good courage;
Be not afraid, neither be thou dismayed: For the LORD thy God is with thee whithersoever thou goest." Joshua 1:9.

You cantor for Christ at Sacred Heart Church. Remember:
Be not afraid.
I go before you always;
Come follow me,
and I will give you rest.

God is with you Suzy. Let us all challenge Him with our prayers. He will see how strong our faith is and He will certainly do that miracle, which He has already started in you.

My masses are on for you ceaselessly. Surely, we shall make enough noise in heaven and St.Peregrine will join in that heavenly noise.

My blessing to you,
Fr. Mike Ohanete