Wednesday, January 17, 2007

Betrayed

I can hardly believe a week has passed since my last post. All I can say about this is that I have been very self-absorbed this past week, totally focused on a most surprising yet ultimately inevitable betrayer: my own body.

I have always been blessed with good health. Even putting my body through closely spaced pregnancies hasn't phased it much, until now. But I guess it's had it. It's tired. It's saying enough. It is rebelling.

The last time I had gestational diabetes, all I had to do was slightly alter my eating schedule, knock out refined sugars and be sure I ate enough protein in combination with any carbs. It was almost effortless to keep my sugars within normal, healthy ranges for the duration of my pregnancy. Then, when I didn't even come down with this condition during my pregnancy with Tony, I thought I was in great shape. But, alas, it was only lying dormant, gathering strength for its next visit.

This time I cannot control my blood sugar with my diet. I have meticulously followed a ridiculously complicated diet, eaten at all hours of the day, measured everything that has gone in my mouth, taken my vitamins, choked down glass after glass of water, yet to no avail. Yesterday my doctor conceded failure on my behalf (after emphatically assuring me that this is not in any way my fault, which I appreciated very much) and prescribed glybuteride to stimulate my pancreas to make more insulin.

The good news is that it is working. My sugars are quite low today and everyone is happy that my body can respond to this kick start and not need insulin injections at this point. The bad news is that it is working too well and I am now fighting hypoglycemia. The nutritionist (who is great, by the way) warned me that this might happen as my body adjusts to new levels of insulin production, but I feel like a science experiment gone wrong. Now an hour after each meal, I find myself staving off a cold sweat and shaking fingers by pounding milk. Go figure! The doctors assure me this is far preferable to the high blood sugars which can harm the baby, but it all seems a little crazy to me. Ultimately, I trust the advice I am being given, which matches all the research I have been doing, but one can't help really, really praying that these people know what they are doing!

I have been signed up for twice weekly fetal monitoring and ultrasound, where they will watch this little one kick and follow her heartbeat for 30 minutes at a time to be sure all is well, and measure the growth to be sure she does not become to large for a safe vaginal delivery. I am thrilled with the responsiveness I have from Kaiser (this is my first Kaiser pregnancy) and the amount of attention they are giving this condition, although, of course, I wish none of it were necessary.

Thank you for bearing with this medical whoa-is-me post. Overnight I have become one of those elderly folks who can't think or talk about anything other than their own health problems! Aaaarrrggg! But I can relate to them now. One's health can be all-consuming, especially when the health of another is dependent on it.

Well, thank goodness I have a toddler, a destructive puppy and 4 other helpful, wonderful children to distract me--we all know I can't stay focused on myself for long!

7 comments:

Michelle said...

Hugs and prayers!

Do you really have a stretch limo?

Angoraknitter said...

Oh my goodness you're near me. Lancaster is just down the hill, figuratively speaking...you're one of the closest "real cities" to us.

Wew, that's a lot to digest on the prego medical drama. But it's okay to let it out a bit. It sounds like you've been working hard on this issue. I'm sure you've heard of the blue ribbon baby diet?...just in case it might be something to do a google search on if you hadn't. It think it's similar to the brewers...but I've never seriously looked into it yet.
Well keep you in our thoughts.

Suzanne Di Silvestri said...

I didn't know where Fort Irwin was--I had to look it up, but you are quite close! I, too, enjoy day trips to Big Bear to play in the snow, although Wrightwood is much closer to us and is usually our first option.

Thanks for the info on the blue ribbon diet, as I had not heard of it before. Seems as if it is great for many conditions.

I am following the diet given by my doctors very closely, but it is frustrating when that isn't enough.

Only a few more weeks...I can do it!

Renaissance said...

Suzanne,

Praying for you, dear.

And Father Augustine wanted me to let you know that your family has been placed in his prayer knapsack. He brings it to Mass daily and counts on his guardian angel to lift all intentions to God!

Annie Bizzi said...

As always, I will keep you in my prayers too! You are serving as a great lesson to me who is always borderline diabetic with each pregnancy. No sugar for me!
Seriously, take care of yourself...you mean too much to so many people for anything to happen to you!
Much love,
a.

Nissa said...

Suzanne,

Father Augustine wanted me to let you know that he said Mass for you yesterday and to say that he is continuing to pray for your health and the baby's.

Blessings,

Nissa
http://gadboisfamily.com/simple_gifts

Suzanne Di Silvestri said...

Nissa,

Thanks so very much to you and Father Augustine. I appreciate your prayers very much!

Suzanne