It's a good thing, really!
Yes, of course I wanted to see a perfectly clean brain with no spots at all. Yet, my biggest fear was that there would be half a dozen or more new spots growing or that the one that was recently treated was still growing unfettered. The news I got is in the middle of these two extremes and I'll take it gratefully.
I am showing three metastatic spots, all previously seen, one recently treated that has not grown or changed and the other two too small to need any attention at this point. My brain radiologist was happy with what he saw and says he will see me again after my next scan in early February. I have at very least two more peaceful months, so what is not to be happy about? As they say on the breast cancer boards, I get to have a dance with the stable boy!
I am adjusting to my new medication regime which is, overall, much better. Every other week I take Xeloda and feel sick and tired for that week. During the "off" week I am feeling better than I have literally in years, because my doctor reduced my dose of Tykerb (daily oral) to accomodate the side effects that come with the Xeloda. I had no idea how much of my general malaise was due to the dose of Tykerb I was taking until it was reduced. I am also finally off my two daily injections of Lovinox, so I am taking less medicine overall and feeling nearly normal during my off week. I had forgotten, truly, what it feels like to feel good for days at a time.
As usual, God has blessed me richly, and I am reminded that no news really is good news. Thanks for all your prayers!