I have been unbelievably blessed to live 18 months as a stage IV cancer patient with very few side effects from treatment, a good response, and maintenance of a normal life as long as I have been able to do this. So many are not as lucky as I have been thus far.
It was inevitable that I would eventually become a real cancer patient, with real effects from treatment, and that is where I am at least for now. As it turns out, when they shoot megawatts of radiation directly into your brain for days on end, things stop behaving perfectly in your body. But as long as those cancer cells are dying, we are good with this.
So for now, I am bald, remarkably bloated, totally fatigued, covered from head to toe with an itchy rash and slightly on this "sloooooow" side (which, is an oddly refreshing break from trying to be on top of things all the time), but am so hopeful that this shall pass into a successfully treated round of brain mets in a few months and that things will improve across the board.
In the meanwhile, what a blessing meals, help with kids, and people keeping me company through all of this has been. It's really, truly, not. that. bad. I can do this! And you are all helping me to do so with great cheer. God bless you all!